tick tock........tick tock

As the days slowly tick past I find myself growing
ever so impatient.
I watch as time slips away and this magical day that tugs
at my heart so inches closer - yet it feels ever so far away.

I confront one of my biggest dislikes this week:
Packing....I Detest it
Packing equals - Stress
Why? Who knows....
I am quiet the organizer yet seeing empty boxes stresses me
and filling them one by one delights my heart...until it becomes
a pile of full boxes waiting till move in day comes.

I am ready for the weekend....for move in to be complete
and to collapse on the couch with my love and grin at having "our" place
no matter how "1st" apartmentish it appears...to have a place to add to our journey
.....these are the thoughts that need to feel my head as I await Friday evening
instead of the thoughts of boxes that need to be filled and those that are full just staring at me to be moved!

81 days...... And maybe by then I will get a grasp of this patience thing :)

Goodbye 2008 Hello 2009

As I am curled up in a big chair with a nice glass of hot tea
I think of the things that define my 2008 year.
Here my top 10 of 2008.
10. A great summer at the Children's home
9. Changing Churches
8. Traveling - ohio, NY, Colorado
7. Andy and I taking a 5 mile canoe trip
6. Gaining the friendship of 3 wonderful girls
5. Going to Turkey and feeling at home
4. Celebrating 2 years with my love
3. Registering for my last semester of classes
2. Surviving 21 hours with all A's
and drum roll please...........
1. Getting engaged to my best friend - of course!

Although I do not create New Year's Revolutions because I feel as though it is just a set up for disappointment or failure.
Despite this my biggest goal is to exercise regularly - at least 3 days a week.
My biggest barrier is myself
but with all that being said I am beyond excited that this year includes
1. Getting married to the most amazing guy
2. Graduating from college to continue my passion of teaching
Happy New Year!!!!!

fall leaves and some bling bling

I love the fall
And the changing of the leaves
Specifically the leaves with colors that sort of blend themselves together naturally
God really knew what he was doing when he created aspects of Fall
It is as if he had my very self in mind :)
I love my fiance ...... not to mention my ring ....Yes, I do love the bling

abandoned playground

Thing that I adore :
spur of the moment picnics with my love on slightly warm autumn days...

candid pictures,

seeing people in love,

the possibility of cold weather tomorrow,

hearing children laughing.. and seeing mom and dads playing with their children,

yellow leaves,



On our picnic tonight .... I saw a playground, however this particular playground made me sad. There were no sounds of children swinging back and forth or the shrieking of the swings with each movement. There was no sound of feet running through gravel or just sounds of laughter. Instead it was just an abandoned playground - one with the swings sitting still or not really sitting at all but merely hanging upside broken or not even connected to the chain instead. Despite the sadness of a broken swingset ....The sun's rays still shined down to cover it and paint a beautiful picture.
*someone come play*

A hole in one....wait What?

A little thing I love.......... Being Spontaneous
So Andy and I went to the Range Master last night with one of his families friends and it was quite fun.
I have found a new way to relieve stress from school Shooting at the Range
(In a non-psychotic way :)
My target "Mr. Ed" was all of my mounds of never ending, stress-provoking, life-condoning work.
Surprisingly when I left.. I was not the least bit stressed :) AMAZING

Side Note - So I am pretty sure one of my favorite things in the world is being around Andy -

a much needed weekend

I simply love time spent with close friends...
I still wonder what I did to deserve some great ones :)
...One of my favorite things about autumn happened two nights ago... A GREAT conversation over starbucks with some amazing girls! (3 hr conversation to be exact)
I feel as though laughing should be shared, To laugh alone just seems to undermine the beauty of what a laugh does for the rest of your body.


Saturday Andy and I got to go spend time with my kiddos at the Children's Home...
I have come to realize how big of a chunk of my heart I left in Turkey, Yet going back to TBCH I realized just how much I left there as well.
I was reminded:
- Cows are amazing little creatures .. they just stand there and moooo at you
- Cow are actually kind of cute
- I mean look at that face whats not to love?

I have been reminded....

God has blessed me with some great friends and an amazing Fiance this year. They have reminded me how precious the little things in life are. Today when I got home I noticed the leaves have started turning to a beautiful yet uncanny yellow already. It reminds me of what is coming....... 1. The weather bringing a crisp chill to it 2. Snuggling with my love drinking Hot Chocolate 3. Good Conversations over Starbucks 4. My Turkish scarves to compliment every outfit And Perhaps my most favorite ... The leaves transforming into such beautiful autumn colors, coloring the branches and all they fall on (followed by the chance to go hiking in all of Gods Beauty with the amazing guy he gave to me)
* It is the beginning of autumn that I am reminded how beautiful it is to love and be loved. *